Caution: Relying on smartphone may cause this...

[Statutory Warning: Relying on your smartphone too much can be injurious to health!]

'Cellphones are so convenient that they are an inconvenience'

Well, you might be wondering why on earth this guy is talking about the cellphone. The reason is my phone is damaged so badly that I can't retrieve most of my important data back. We were like a couple, 'Me and my smartphone' xD. I used to share most of "my" things with my smartphone. It was my only trusted friend with whom I could share all of my sorrows, happy moments, stalked pics of others, my feelings and most importantly my writings. I had written several new poems in the last 3 months. I had also written a few quotes one of which was related to my views on social media. I never tried to remember my own writings, my own feelings so I used to note everything in 'my notes' (app not a notebook). From notes, I remember I had also taken down some of the important notes from seminars and colloquiums in it. My RedMi Note4 also had stalked pics (more than 50) and dance videos of the only girl I loved. It also had my chats with her which I used to cut paste in notes and delete from chat, just because I knew everyone in from my friends' circle and family will check my chats but not notes. Well its not about whether I am love failure or not; it doesn't even matter to me, as when I confessed my feelings to her I already told her- 'I don't expect anything from you, its just that I wanted to tell you, so that it'll reduce the burden which I'm carrying deep inside my heart (for the first time and with high intensity) . You can take as much time as you want. I'll be waiting.' A few months later suddenly she stopped talking to me. 'The hardest is not talking to someone you used to talk every day!' Since then I started pretending like 'I don't care!' But eventually there's an adverse effect of it on my one-sided relationship or love and now she started ignoring me. Sorry that the topic is turning very personal. Well, it's my personal blog which I don't share with many people but still, I don't want make it very personal as I hope someday when people will start knowing me there's a slight possibility that they'll read this blog. Let's get to the point, I had noted down all those mixed feelings in my own style which are now washed away with my smartphone. I do remember those feelings and will remember but it's highly impossible to recall the exact words, creative writing and poems which I wrote time to time. Even if I try it again I can't and also I think if we try to write something just to write then it's always impure and harsh. It's always good to keep your writings pure. Don't let its purity get contaminated with adjustments. Actually, the written word would be a Remake. As I know I suck at making remakes. The biggest pains are that I had written one philosophical poem in Hindi and had just started writing 2 new poems out of which one was on one of my recent but very close friends while the other was about outcomes of first love. Now that I learned the lesson from it that - 'We shouldn't rely on technology.' 

I have decided that I'll start writing in real means(by this I mean with pen&paper) but see how contradictory it is, that I am writing here on my blog instead of on paper 😛😛